Listening to: My cat meowing
Reading: Kyo Kara Maoh!
Eating: Going to Denny's
Drinking: Gonna get Root Beer!
I'm sorry, I usually don't post these sorts of things anywhere... I just kinda bottle it all up... But I feel this time I need to tell someone about this...
I have this fear.... This fear of talking to new people... and talking to people who i haven't talked to in a long time.
Every time I join a new site like tumblr or chatrooms and the such and even thinking about talking to new people causes my tummy to feel funny and somewhat sick. I get so nervous that i can't even join chatrooms.
I know it's a pointless thing to be afraid of and people say "don't be afraid because they don't even know you." and that it should be 'easy' to make new friends online.
I dunno, I guess it's all the haters and trolls on the net that terrify me so badly because I don't want to picked on for something like my unoriginal drawings or the way that I rp.
Fandoms terrify me because I don't accidentally want to say something that the fandom thinks is stupid and then have everyone turn against me. I've seen it happen on facebook and on tumblr. I've seen when people in fandoms will just go and tear each other apart just for one thing like not being original or not typing with correct grammar.
I mean it's not like I've ever had to deal with the whole cyber-bullying or trolls or stuff like that. I'm just scared. I don't know why...
And it's not an easy fear to get over... I've been trying to get over it for a long time now.
that's why I have this dA account... I made this so I could try to be more sociable but it's still incredibly hard to do.
I've tried to get advice about this but none of it has worked... I still get the tummy upsetting fear... And i still avoid most places ot migle and make friends... Hell I even avoid online games and MMOs...
I'm sorry about spamming your inbox with this problem of mine...
I won't do it again